I feel familyless. Technically my family are living so maybe it is wrong to say this, but I do. I know my story and life are nowhere nearly as bad or horrific as so many I have been witness to. In part I speak because I want others to know they have people out there who DO care. In part I speak because I too feel lonely. I wish sometimes I had this fantasy family - then I realize that is so naive and probably not very healthy. Most of all I just want to be loved - not worshipped or adored, just loved for who I am. Family often doesn't do that. I find this a terrible shame.
Anyway for anyone who is lonely, just know, you are not alone, and you are not weird or unwanted completely - there are people who care. Thank you to the moderator who set this community up. I wish there were more like you.