After losing your family did your friends also just leave you? Kind of like they were all there for you during those first few moments and now it's like you're in the background and you can see your friends all in a small group? They will ignore you, not invite you out, or just plain forget about you?
Is it all too much for them?
The thing is if it ever happens to them they will just come running to you because obviously you're the one who they know won't leave them. Sometimes I wonder if I would just drop them, like they did me.